ATL was interesting. I learned a lot about myself. I am hypersensitive to a lot of things. I don't like feeling like I don't measure up. I get very defensive about that. I am exremely alert to any feelings of discomfort.
I learned that some of my expectations aren't realistic and that I don't always hear what someone tells me.
Robert told me that he needs time to unwind when he comes off the road. I don't understand that because I don't drive long distances for a living. Hell, I don't drive for a living. He said he usually needed three days to be fit for human company after coming off the road. He drinks heavily to destress. I didn't understand that what he wanted was to be left alone for a few days while he did this. The fact that they gave him a load that ended on the same day I arrived really threw him off.
So, while he was attempting to destress and accommodate me I thought he didn't want me there. He got sick and then didn't want to come to bed because of his digestive upset (reminiscent of Addison) and I mistook that for his not wanting to be near me. I got very angry and had planned on leaving the next day. Later I realized I was being unfair and a bit dramatic. At least I didn't tell him about the dramatics.
Mostly I had a nice time. I don't know if I could live with that. It's a lot to ask of anyone. Maybe now that I understand it I might be better able to understand and adapt to it. Who knows.
