Today was a day and a half!
This week I worked twelve hours of overtime. I am happy to fill in for my co-worker, but I am dead dog tired!
I talked to Michelle this afternoon around 4:30PM. She called to say that her mother had passed away. She is completely heart broken. I know she thought that her mother was getting better, but she didn't. She can't think, she can't talk. She's just lost right now. I told her that she should just cry for the next forty-eight hours. She shouldn't think about anything but grieving for a while.
She has no idea where to begin in planning a funeral, but neither do I. She will have to contact Department of Human Services to find out what benefits she can take advantage of. I will help her with anything I can. Gwen, Janis and Denita all have experience in planning funerals. I've only watched my mom plan my grandmother's cremation. We didn't have a funeral for her. I'm out of my depth.
I've got a support group lined up and waiting for their marching orders. That's all I can do. I feel like their should be more. Part of me wants to go over there and part of me is just terrified. What if I say or do the wrong thing. I just want to go over there and hold her while she cries. I wish I could aleviate her pain, but I know I can't. I know she has to do this on her own and in her own time. Sucks, but there it is.
Robert was here this week. He arrived Monday and left Thursday. I saw him Tuesday and he was just silly. He kept his distance the entire time I was over at Beverly's. He gave me a hug and talking to me even after I had gotten into the truck and started it. I turned the truck off and got out. Kept talking and hugged me some more. It was funny.
Last night I called him and he was drunk. He asked me did I know why he wouldn't sit next to me. I told him no. He said it was because he would have tried something. I guess he doesn't know that even if he had tried something it wouldn't have mattered.
He did say that he wasn't good enough for me right now. I thought that was brave of him. He doesn't admit that he's not adequate easily.
All right, that's enough for tonight.
